Do you waver?

A little slice of James chapter 1:

...If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.

To doubt is to hesitate or to waver.

I've been meditating on this scripture today. I've been thinking about whether or not I am prone to waver. Confession: I am. It's the truth.

I tend to go back and forth (see, wavering!->right there!) on decisions. It's in a lot of things that seem irrelevant in life. Like- what I want to eat or whether or not I will take a long drive to attend a certain event or not, or even what I want to wear, or whether or not I will wash my hair that day. Sounds weird, but it's the truth. I'll go back and forth in my head and think through each choice. I'll even decide on one...and within a few minutes I might change my mind and switch to the other choice. Hm...

So I tend to waiver on the regular when it comes to small stuff...but what about everything else?

As I thought this over today I began to realize something. Often times, when I am thinking about what I am going to do... how I am going to walk my faith out...I think through my options and a decision is made based on which option I can see all the way through. Which option do I know the outcome of? Which option seems possible? Which option is do-able?... Is that faith at all?...

This got me thinking. Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do NOT see...


And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him. -Hebrews 11:6

Is my "faith" based on sight?

For we live by faith and not by site -2 Corinthians 5:7

The two seem to be contrasting...

One is belief and the other is appearance.

One is relying on God and the other is relying on self.

Father forgive me for my lack of faith in decision making. I want to trust you. I want to believe you.

I am thankful that I serve a gracious God. I need help in this area. I do not want to be an unstable person. I want to be found on the rock, relying, trusting, believing. And truly living the faith-walk...not just talking the faith-talk. Sounds a little funny, but seriously.

Signing out,

Grace